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Long Time No See [Feb. 23rd, 2006|02:57 pm]
[Current Mood |stressedstressed]
[Current Music |Fall Out Boy "Sophmore Slump or Comeback of the Year"]

i dont update this waste of space cuz no one reads it anyways lol but what the heck!

so lately ive been hanging out with Ashley and Hillary...basketball games, parties, girls nights, parties, chocolate, and parties.....we like to party....dont forget the rap songs...cuz me and ash rap just like Nelly and Em...yo

im really busy......lots and lots of homework and i start BIg Brothers Big Sisters on Monday and i dont like ignorant people...and RF is full of them...seriously...people just say and start ridiculous crap.....and i have no problem with confonting chicks and dudes and lettin them know whats up....thank goodness im in track and im buff cuz these chicks backed off....its just cuz im so hott :)

Levi Leap is coming up and i have no idea who im going to ask....i wanna go and dance and have unbelievable fun....its my last year and levi leap is the best dance so its gotta be a good time....and i think im getting my prom dress on sunday....im going out with a bang this year so my dress is gonna be HAWT....adn senior night for basketball is tomorrow night....we won NCIC.....Markie dunked it.....cool stuff...

Cancun is in 3 months....im gonna party my little tushy off.....and im supposed to hang out with tony and pirate this weekend....could get interesting

thats all i got for now.....for the millions and millions of people that read this....please leave a lil somthing for me...possibly a comment.....or maybe not

<3 Jen
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"Save the Earth, Plant Some Onions"- a wall....good quote adam lol [Nov. 15th, 2005|07:49 pm]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |Faith Hill "Mississippi Girl" (im in a country music phase)]

well my last entry was a little vague but i was excited and pressed for time so heres a 1/2 way detailed update on my life:

* im kind of "dating" right now i guess you could say...me and nate hung out a couple of times nad had fun but we both knew that nothing was gonna happen and thats totally cool...jesse is kinda trying to hook me up with a guy that he works with which is cool cuz hes a sweetie

* i got the "GUTS" award at my cross country banquet cuz i ran for most of the season with a broken foot until it gave out....and apparantly that takes guts lol

* today in 7th hour me zach mallory andrew and kelen played heather antonio justin ashley n and lisa in a volleyball game and it was soooo much fun! we were all going crazy having a blast and spiking the ball at each other lol it was hilarious and of course...my team won...i really miss playing volleyball...but i really really miss basketball..omgosh and i totally forgot! jeremy ran up the wall 7th hour and did a backflip!! it was freakin amazing!

* i cant get my locker open anymore lol and i dont know whats wrong with it....i have to ask random people walking by to help me get my locker open lol...ive even had heather and mikey g watch me do the combination perfectly and it still wont open lol so now cory (my locker buddy) knows my combination better than his own lol

well this is getting kind of long so im gonna wrap things up...COMMENT

<3 Jen

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MMM good [Nov. 5th, 2005|08:00 pm]
[Current Mood |flirtyflirty]
[Current Music |Finch "Perfection Through Silence"]

AND HE'S GORGEOUS
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It's Been A Grip! [Oct. 11th, 2005|06:43 pm]
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[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |"Of All the Gin Joints in All the World" Fall Out Boy]

i know i know....its been a while...but i think steffies the only one who reads this beast anyway lol but thats ok....so heres whats been going on in my oh so wild life:

Saturday I went to Augustana College in the Quad Cities for a visit day...there was a tour and i had to wear this weird name tag thing and walk around...i have to admit that the campus was BEAUTIFUL but HUGE and then i went back to my grandmas cuz it was steffies bday family party thing and the demons were there (aka the lil cuz's) and robby came up herre too...me and stef and robby decided to leave so we walked down to my house and hung out for the rest of the night....robby was trapped on my roof but we managed to get him down w/o ripping down my gutters lol...then me and stef and robby had a heart to heart so we're tight now lol BUT THEY CANT TELL A SOUL! lol im a sinner lets just say that  but anywho...then i went to jessica lehrers birthday party at like 7:00...it was a bonfire and we all hung out....then i hit up another party at brocks and it was INSANE....people were EVERYWHERE...so so so fun...me and hillary are cool now so im ok with her and sarah and ashley....im so happy that everyone is friends again senior year...but i cant go into detail about that or the rest of the party...sorry folks...

Sunday i worked from 9-4 and i worked with Dallas and Brandon....the cutie pies lol then me and murph and megpie and heather and jarod went to a hauted house....meg and murph were in front and heather was in the middle and me and jarod were in the back...we were so paranoid! and i am the biggest dork EVER lol i thought megan was up with murph but these lights were flashing and there was this girl standing there so i was like hey meg get up there with murph yall are so cute! and she just kinda walked along so i talked to her for like 10 minutes while holding jarods arm and then i was saw megan with murph...and i looked behind me and that DEFINITELY was NOT megan! and the chick screamed a bloodcurdling scream right in my face....im a nerd lol i grabbed jarods hand and ran...i felt so stupid  lol but o well....i know that im the Queen Dork

Monday i worked til close but Brandon let me go early since he was training me on frontline and i got all my stuff done....so i went to heathers with evan and murph and we had a Laguna Beach party lol actually we were all wrestling in the basement and having a but slap contest (trying to slap each others booties as hard as possible lol) and i so won...

Today school was so awesome...had alot to talk about with all mah homies lol and tomorrow me and brad are going out to lunch...which will be a good time lol

but thats enough of my rambling for now...ill try to update more often cuz yeah im just sooo exciting lol Comment to your liking

<3 Jen

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My wonderful friend Evan wrote me a poem! hes a poetic genius lol so here it is: [Sep. 2nd, 2005|04:23 pm]
[Current Mood |crazycrazy]
[Current Music |Chingy "One Call Away" (rap for mah homie!)]

To My Dearest Jenna

 

Im trying to write a poem but it wont come out

i have no idea what even to write about

you see its not hard to describe jenna as anything less than a good friend

but looking back at things shes more than just good, shes the best, man

let me take you back to christmas and my little incident

the one with lupe and his involvement with a car accident

she was the first to call and see if i was alright

i told her "yea but my idea wasnt too bright"

she agreed but said "life will move on bro"

thats why i love her, and thats fo' sho

she was there when i was alone and horny,

Im still writing this poem even if it does sound corny

and again she cheered me up and said not to worry

that there was the right one out there for me and even perry.

you ran cross country and track to keep that bod

to me and everyone else you are a freaking god.

you always have the right thing to say at that very moment

but you see im sorry because i didnt

sorry for not telling you about what zach did

sorry for not knowing what to say, i felt like a kid

sorry for you finding out the way you did and having to live with it.

sorry for you still knowing that you feel like shit.

but i want you to release your anger out on me

i think i can take it because im E-Dub-D

but there will be someone else you fall for

a dime on a scale from 1 to 10 score

so dont worry kid, im here for you

ill give you 100 percent or maybe just my left shoe

it doesnt matter to me, how about you?

sorry just joshing but now im serious.

listen to your heart and do what you think is right.

take it easy and dont get into many fights.

watch out for posts three foot high

but ill talk to you later girlie goodbye!!!

 

ok i know whoever read this probably has no idea what any of that means but i get it and evan is a great friend and a great person....i love him to death and hope we stay friends for a long time...so thank you e-dub-dizzle!! i love you bud and im always here for you!

 

<3 Jen

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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2005|01:03 pm]
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music |Aerosmith "Rag Doll"]

i never update this

why you ask? lets make a list!

1. parties--its not a party with out me....DUH
2. cross country practice
3. job hunting
4. hanging out with my chums
5. SHEER LAZINESS

thank you that is all...well except i start senior year on thursday and the first footbal game is on friday....im going all out...ROCKET ROWDIE TO THE MAX...and you know how i love football players....mmmm

ok im done

<3 Jen
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Untitled [Jul. 27th, 2005|12:12 am]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[Current Music |Def Leppard "Love Bites"]

ever had that helpless feeling where someone is falling away from you and you just cant reach out and catch their hand as they slip away? i have that feeling....and im confused....im totally confused...i miss him bad...just as my best friend...not even as my boyfriend...cept for sometimes...my best memory of us? *going out on the boat...holding on to each other looking at the sparkling water....holding hands the whole way home then falling asleep together on the couch...waking up and seeing him staring at me with that look i love so much...running his fingers through my hair* sappy i know but its one the favorite memories...one that will never leave you...never leave me...

theres one ? that gets me though...do you love him? of course i love him...hes my best friend...but am im in love with him? no...but i care very deeply for him....i could have loved him eventually if we wouldnt have broke up...but how does anyone know if theyre in love? people say "oh you'll just know"....maybe thats true but how do any of us know what love is? i dont think a lot of people know...how high is the divorce rate nowadays? yeah its love right? if your in love then you will dedicate your LIFE to that person...if it gets broken off then it wasnt love...i dont care what anyone says....fight me on that all you want...

then theres those kids/teens whatever that go around saying "i love you...i love you" or "oh i love him"...thats a load of BS right there...theyre abusing that word...they have no clue what love is...and if they keep that crap up then theyll never know...those kids that are going out for a freakin day and theyre like "I LOVE YOU" HA! thats the most ridiculous thing ive ever heard...love takes time...it takes work...and passion...and thought...

LOVE IS SO ABUSED....thats my opinion though...comment...i wanna know your opinions...but please dont leave any of those rude anonymous comments cuz i wont take that crap...just sign your name its not hard....and theres a way to voice your opinion without being mean...i wasnt mean to you so theres no reason to disrespect me...thank you in advance and COMMENT por favor

</3 Jen
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MY BIRTHDAY BASH!!! [Jul. 5th, 2005|12:46 pm]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |Harry Nillson "Put the Lime in the Coconut"]

yeah so im FINALLY updating lol i never get online anymore cuz im way to lazy and the internet bugs me...but yeah so my birthday was yesterday (the 4th of july...im a firecracker hehe) and i had 2 parties!

1ST PARTY- my family came up on the 3rd and we ate lots and lots of good food...steffie came over and we did what we usually do...retreated into the basement and played nintendo 64 lol my crazy aunt janice got me tickets to see green day and my chemical romance though!! awesome seats too....4th row lower bowl...im pumped even though my aunt and her boyfriend and my mom are going lol i dont care its gonna rock!!

2nd PARTY- ok this was on my ACTUAL bday! lots of people called me to tell me happy birthday...jessica and perry came and picked me up and we went to mimi's to swim and eat lots of awesome food..then jess took me home and i showered and then she came and got me and megpie and we went to dinner and a movie...i was wearing a hat in Applebees that said "ITS MY BIRTHDAY" and i got a free sundae lol then we saw mr and mrs smith at like 930 and when i went to get my ticket there was this guy and we had quite the convo
*me: "its my birthday today...do i get some kind of discount?"
*dude: "no but happy birthday...how old are you?"
*me: "17...how old are you?"
*dude: "oh im 20"
*me: "wow your old"
*dude: (laughs) "oh thanks lol forget that discount!"
*me: you werent gonna give me one anyway!"
*dude: "enjoy the movie birthday girl"

it was awesome...so anywho...these 2 boys were in there (we were the only ones in the movie) and jessica was like "COME ON OVER HERE AND SIT WITH US!!" and i was like yeah come on over!! so they sat right next to me and said their names were sam and bob but we called bob sally...(dont ask questions) but yes they were very cute

well thats it...comment for the birthday girl! even though it was yesterday

<3 Jen
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Happiness is all that counts...if your not happy in the end...its not worth it [Jun. 7th, 2005|07:13 pm]
[Current Mood |indescribableindescribable....maybe]
[Current Music |Taking Back Sunday "Bonus Mosh Part II"]

Little girls always dream about their "perfect guy" Whats he going to be like or look like? Talking about those "perfect guy" qualifications: trustworthy, loyal, honest, good sense of humor, awesome personality...but usually that guy is just a girly childhood fairytale. Is it too good to be true?

In reality, of course those qualities matter, but ive learned that there's more than just that...that guy or girl...whatever...has to like or...love you back. That person could be or have everything youve ever dreamed of...everything youve ever wanted but if he or she doesnt feel the same then...its just a long lost fantasy...

I cant say if ive ever been in love but i know that ive cared...care...about certain people very very much. i know that being in love is an amazing part of life..but trust me...its not worth loving...when you know your not loved back.

-Jen


*ask yourself if your happy...then go from there..

thats all i got...COMMENTS create happiness
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Agitated at the fault line...still agree to disagree [Jun. 4th, 2005|02:11 pm]
[Current Mood |crankycranky]
[Current Music |Story of the Year "Swallow the Knife"]

i figured i might as well update since its been quite a while...plus today is june 4th which means theres exactly one month till my birthday...

wednesday i went to evans grandmas for a cookout...we took murphs truck to get out to the camp site...its way way way out there...but its beautiful..evan and his bro built it..its by the river in a little opening in the trees and logs that look like stumps line the little area...its awesome...we had a cookout but we needed lighter fluid for murphs stupid little grill lol...we didnt have any but pyro-Zach used off bug spray to start the fire lol it was hilarious...and evan crashed the gator into murphs truck...it was a good time...

so last night i went to the movies with jessica and cody and tyler...then me and tyler texted each other like all night and seriously...im so sick of BS and lies...my boyfriend NEVER has time for me it seems like and i want it to work so i just keep my mouth shut cuz i love being with him but i dont wanna complain but i dont know and ty can make up his damn mind and hes confusing me with all this crap...GOSH!!

well thats all for now i guess ill update later...i will definitely update June 13...but maybe sometime sooner too

comments make me happy

<3 Jen

"so our open wounds will bleed
until our veins run dry"
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